Every drastic step you take in life seems normal to the people around you. It’s always hard, it’s always heart wrenching and it’s always painful. Life is not easy as we all know but it’s us who make the decision that things are going to work out well or not. Yes there will be a lot of ups and downs and believe me this journey is the most difficult one because it includes both mental and physical hardships. Well mostly for me it is the mental hardships which are most hard to handle. “There are moments when you hate to stand at a red light and then there are moments when you never want the red light to turn green”. My story revolved around these lines, the ups and downs I faced in my life related to my health.
I
was an obese child and the youngest and the cutest one, so wherever I went
people used to give me chocolates and fries and whatever they had and I ate
whatever I wanted and started gaining weight and all this continued, I always
looked bigger and elder than my friends and class fellows. It was a very bad
feeling I must say.
Being
a short girl (5’2) and weighing my highest 97 kg means 213.8 pounds was a
pretty bad feeling. Low self-esteem, no confidence at all, my color was dark and
I had several other issues including skin conditions and I am also suffering
from pituitary tumour so my journey was not as easy as it seems. Depression,
stress and anxiety destroyed my happiness. Because of all the problems I became
very aggressive and moody. I had very few friends and then in 2013 I took
admission in a university, well that was a turning point for me. How? Well I
got the best group of friends I could have ever I asked for. All of them
changed me as a person, they made me happy. I started to live again as a normal
person outside the medical conditions and the depression and the stress. Then I
took a stand for myself and by the great motivation from my sister I started
exercising. I changed my lifestyle, I changed my eating habits.
Changing
your diet means nothing if you are not working out. So I started just by
walking, cycling and doing squats. I started drinking detox water rather than
plain water, I left junk food, sugars and wheat, as a Pakistani wheat is the
most important thing to eat but it didn’t suit me so I left it. I started my
journey in august 2014, it was very hard for me, I wept every other day
but I didn’t give up, I continued, struggled because I wanted to look good for
myself, I wanted my confidence back, I wanted my happiness back so I worked for
it and by the end of July 2015 I lost total 25 kg (55 pounds) and weighed 72 kg
(158.7) but the journey didn’t end here because I hit a plateau. I worked hard
I did everything I could but the scale was not going down, so, I lost all my
motivation and as a result I gained 3 kg back that was THE MOST difficult time
for me because when you work hard, you strive for something and then you
don’t get it. It breaks your heart into tiny little pieces.
I
didn’t say I give up. I never did and I never will because I know if I’ll lose
hope, I’ll lose everything and I didn’t do all that hard work to give up.
Always remember losing weight is never easy but believe me everything you do
for yourself is always worth it. Take time out from your busy routine, take a
deep breath and start right now, start living for yourself because no matter
what you do for anybody else at some point of life they will tell you that you
didn’t do enough but if you will do a minor thing for yourself it will give you
immense happiness. There is a quote “when you’re about to quit, just remember
why you started”. So remember WHY YOU STARTED!
The
only reason behind writing this blog is that I only want people to get
motivated and embrace health like I did. I started a bit late but it’s never
too late to embrace health.
Stay
happy, always smile, ignore the negative and jealous people because believe me
there are thousands of them and lastly help others that’s what life is all
about and yes keep yourself motivated and be strong not just physically but
mentally too!
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